Beverley, 18. Introvert.
♥ Dogs
on Monday, January 9, 2012 @ 10:43 PM

It's always darkest before the dawn.


Day Three & Four
on Friday, January 6, 2012 @ 6:36 AM

Happy 17th months of what could have been, probably still is, because I know you like the back of my hand.

But I don't know myself.


Day Two - "Looking for heaven, for the devil in me."
on Wednesday, January 4, 2012 @ 7:41 PM





You and me both, Florence, you and me both.

At the end of the day, I still have to fight my battles alone.

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Day Fucking One.
on Tuesday, January 3, 2012 @ 11:30 PM

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love


“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.” ― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love


“As smoking is to the lungs, so is resentment to the soul; even one puff is bad for you.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert

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on Tuesday, November 22, 2011 @ 4:31 PM

I am so tired. Of everything.


Why, hello there.
on Monday, August 22, 2011 @ 11:51 AM

Hi, the name's Beverley right..? Just thought I'd pop by and tell you how absolutely beautiful you are. I mean really, you take my breath away every waking moment. I have never and will never see a more beautiful girl, honest.


Too much love will kill you.
on Sunday, August 14, 2011 @ 11:33 PM

It's been a while.

Sometimes I feel like I don't know what I'm doing with my life. If you really think about how insignificant we are, it's scary. I could die tomorrow and within a year or two the people I knew and love would've moved on with their lives while I become nothing but a distant memory.

I don't know who you are when you make these mistakes. If you're not you, I don't want to be with you. It's times like this that make me reconsider if all of this anxiety is really worth it.

Sometimes I have to block the thoughts away. If you let your thoughts consume you, it feels like you could really lose it.

I don't stay with my own family. I've lost my sense of direction for my career. My body is weaker than ever. You keep making the same fucking mistake. Worst of all, no one knows what's going on. I can't share this with anyone. Along the way I just, withdrew deeper and deeper into myself.

This is awfully tiring.

I'm dying for this weight and burden to be lifted from my shoulders.

Please. No more.



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