Too much love will kill you.
on Sunday, August 14, 2011 @ 11:33 PM
It's been a while.
Sometimes I feel like I don't know what I'm doing with my life. If you really think about how insignificant we are, it's scary. I could die tomorrow and within a year or two the people I knew and love would've moved on with their lives while I become nothing but a distant memory.
I don't know who you are when you make these mistakes. If you're not you, I don't want to be with you. It's times like this that make me reconsider if all of this anxiety is really worth it.
Sometimes I have to block the thoughts away. If you let your thoughts consume you, it feels like you could really lose it.
I don't stay with my own family. I've lost my sense of direction for my career. My body is weaker than ever. You keep making the same fucking mistake. Worst of all, no one knows what's going on. I can't share this with anyone. Along the way I just, withdrew deeper and deeper into myself.
This is awfully tiring.
I'm dying for this weight and burden to be lifted from my shoulders.
Please. No more.
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